Valentine’s tunes

It’s Valentine’s Day. I’m not overly excited about it. I could have had a date today, but I’m not the kind of girl who goes out with anyone just because she doesn’t want to be alone on Valentine’s Day. In fact, three different guys asked me out and I turned all of them down. I spent my day playing the piano, watching Netflix and eating lots of chocolate. Sounds really productive to me. Plus my bestie bought me chocolate yesterday so that’s at least something. I feel like I’m slowly turning into someone who’s way too cool to be me. I mean, I’ve always been cool in my eyes, but now I’m cool in other people’s eyes. To be fair, when I casually mentioned that I met J.K. Rowling, Nicole Kidman and Emma Stone, my friends were all impressed and made a big deal out of it. The truth is, it’s not a big deal to me. I feel like meeting celebrities is part of my life now and it always will be. My real passion is acting. I can finally admit it. Being in front of a camera and creating art is what I want to do with my life. This week is my film week because I’m filming almost all week. Tomorrow is my first day on set and I’m already excited since I’m the lead actress. I’d like to think I’m good at what I’m doing because I’m so passionate about it, but the opinion of others matters more to me. I could think I’m really good at something when in reality everyone else thinks I suck at it. Then again, if you enjoy what you’re doing, you shouldn’t let anyone keep you from doing it just because they think you’re not good at it. I don’t think I’ll ever be as famous as Nicole Kidman, but at least I can try and be as good at acting as she is. Tomorrow will be my time to prove that I was born to be on screen. I can’t wait!

Don’t forget,

I’m the girl who knows it all. xoxo

Disconnected.

I don’t have wifi so I have no idea when you’ll be able to read this blog-post. If you’re reading this, it means that my wifi is back or that I’ve found another way to upload this. To be honest, I don’t know what to say. I might have a crush on my Italian friend now… But maybe I’m imagining things. I get at least two new crushes per week. My last three crushes aren’t even crushes any longer. Forget about eyebrow-guy (who hasn’t even replied to my message yet), NGND and all of the others. I should just stay friends with them and not take it any further. If there’s a guy I really like and who likes me back, then I might consider being in a relationship with him. It seems like I’m obsessed with this topic lately. But now I’ve found something productive to do (which doesn’t involve doing course work or studying for my exams): writing.

Not only writing blog-posts, but short-stories and transforming these short-stories into scripts and making films out of the scripts. That’s what film-making is all about: passion for the subject and original ideas. You need both to be successful, but you also need talented actors, a good camera-man, editors, and a marvelous director. Who knows? Maybe you’ll see one of my films on screen one day. Never say never. I have so many ideas it’s insane! Film-making as well as acting and writing songs/scripts/stories/etc. is my passion. I couldn’t live without films and music. Then again, I couldn’t live without chocolate and pizza, but that’s another topic.

I’ll focus on my work from now on. I want to be productive in a way. I want to change the world. Make it a better place. Make people feel something when they watch my films or listen to my songs. I’m sure one day I’ll find someone who loves my art as much as I do. But what is art? It’s a way of expressing yourself. Your emotions. Your soul. Art = Life. I think I might’ve found that person already… He just sent me a good morning message. How much I missed getting good morning messages from a guy that really cares about me! I’ll keep you updated! No more excuses now that I’m finally re-connected ;D.

Don’t forget,

I’m the girl who knows it all. xoxo

Adventure time (ft. Elton John’s dogs)

I’m in a really good mood today.

I’m happy.

I nearly forgot what being happy feels like because my week was horrible. But everything changed today…

I had an adventure with three of my friends and I met so many awesome new people! Two girls told me that they loved my coat (it really is gorgeous!) and another girl thought I was a make-up pro because my eye-shadow was en pointe. I took part in a quiz show today and even though my team lost it was a lot of fun and a great experience! Plus I embarrassed the people who made the quiz show when they were interviewing me afterwards. They wanted me to think of a question for their show and I was like “How did Socrates die?” and no one knew it apart from me and the guy from my team. I was utterly shocked to be honest  because things like that are general knowledge. If you don’t know how Socrates died then please stop reading, leave my blog immediately and read Socrates’ whole biography (I’m just kidding). When I first got into the studio one of the camera guys greeted me and the guy from my team and I thought “He looks kinda cute”. But I didn’t think that I’d talk to him again. After the show he told me I did a great job which I honestly didn’t, but at least that’s how we started a nice conversation. He’s a really nice guy and I think we’ll become good friends because we had this instant connection just like me and my best friend when I met him for the first time.

After that, me and three of my guy friends went on a trip to go to houses of celebrities. I won’t mention all of them, but one of the coolest was Elton John’s house. We technically weren’t allowed to even enter, but we did anyways because I wanted to get some great selfies (which I did). Unfortunately, Elton wasn’t home, but we talked to his butler and met his dogs, which is at least something. In the evening, we went to a classical concert in the chapel of the castle I live in, which was really nice and relaxing and the choir was amazing!

Quick life update: I have no idea what to do with suitor number 1. Completely shut him out of my life or give him ANOTHER chance? I don’t think he deserves another chance. He doesn’t even wanna see me anymore so why should I put up with him any longer? There are so many guys out there and I have tons of admirers dying to get a date with me so maybe I should give THEM a chance for a change. They won’t take me for granted at least. I have a feeling next week will be absolutely amazing! I’m gonna live my life the way I want now and I’m not gonna let other people decide about how I feel (unless they make me feel really good). I hope all of you have a great week!

Don’t forget,

I’m the girl who knows it all. xoxo