Merry Christmas, bitches!

It’s this time of the year again: everyone spams Instagram with pictures of their dogs/cats/children/washing machines in Santa costumes.

I looked up the hashtag #savethewhales yesterday and came across a guy who posted a picture of whale steaks using this hashtag. This world is a cruel place full of stupid people. Or genius people depending on how you look at it. I love and hate Christmas at the same time. I love the food, music, atmosphere etc., but I hate the fact that it doesn’t even snow here any longer. Fuck the global warming! It once again screwed us over. Thanks for ruining my Christmas, bitch! But seriously if I were the good fairy from Cinderella, then I’d use my wand and sing “Bibbedy Babbedy Back off” and then it would finally snow and my Christmas would be saved. I don’t need snow to be in a Christmas mood, but it certainly helps. Even though the snow in Winter Wonderland in London was fake, I could still pretend that it’s real. That’s the spirit! But I might be able to see real snow today. Hopefully…

I watched Naomi’s and Ely’s no kiss list today and I realised that my best friend is like Ely to me. Apart from the fact that he’d never make out with my boyfriend. Even I didn’t wanna make out with him hence why I dumped him. But I’m the cool, pretty chic that gets all the attention from guys and yet, I prefer spending time with my bestie. Do crazy things and have fun together. I really miss him… That’s one thing I hate about Christmas: Christmas holidays. I mean I love holidays, but I don’t love the fact that I’m not able to see my friends as much as I want to. But everything has an end and there are only 2 weeks of the holidays left so I’ll survive. I hope. There’s this guy I kind of like though… I miss him and he misses me as far as I can tell. We didn’t really spend much time together, but he’s trying to change that. I just don’t know if I want it to change. I mean he’s nice and cool and cute and everything, but he’s a friend and I don’t wanna lose him and my other friends because I don’t like him. But I DO like him. It’s complicated. I’m like Naomi. But anyways, I hope you have a lovely Christmas and keep posting pictures of your pets and your grandma in a Santa costume to keep me entertained 😉

Don’t forget,

I’m the girl who knows it all. xoxo

 

Jingle Bell Rocking London

A bad day in London is still better than a good day anywhere else.

I can confirm that this inspirational quote is true. I had the worst and the best day ever in London. Incidentally, both in the same week. Let’s start with the worst day ever: my home caught fire and one of my cats died in the flames. I was too shocked to cry. I questioned everything that had ever happened in my life. How did I deserve this? Then I went to my besties’ place and he managed to cheer me up (with cuddles, hugs and kisses – just as friends of course!). He told me that this horrible thing gave me a lot of good karma and that something great will happen to me to make up for the bad thing. He was right. Something truly magical happened: I went to the Winter Wonderland in Hyde Park. This was by far the best day I’ve ever had. I spent hundreds of pounds on food, mulled wine, and rides! The roller coasters were the best (especially the scary looking Munich looping!). Believe it or not, but I had never ridden a roller coaster in my whole life before I went to the Winter Wonderland. My friends call me the roller coaster queen now because I even went on roller coasters they were afraid of and it was my first time ever riding roller coasters! The adrenalin kick and the memories are priceless. I felt like a little girl again. Winter Wonderland really makes all of your dreams come true. It’s the perfect proof that you CAN buy happiness. And I needed a LOT of happiness after the horrible thing that happened to me. I wish there was a Winter Wonderland all year round because then I could always go there when I’m sad and the delicious food and the rides would immediately cheer me up! The Christmas music, the snow (don’t tell me it was fake!!!) and the whole atmosphere where simply amazing. Everything in London looks absolutely stunning in the Christmas time. Oxford street at night with all the Christmas decoration and fairy lights in the trees is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen (apart from the WW). I simply had so much fun! I’d highly recommend going there if you’re ever in London around Christmas. Here’s a quick love update: I can confirm that I don’t have any feelings for SN1 (he’s basically dead to me now) and my bestie (we’re still best friends, don’t worry). I might have feelings for film guy though… I would love to go to WW with him, but 1. I have no idea if he’s even interested in me 2. He might be gay. I’ll have to find out more about him, but I’m not the kind of person who stalks their crush on social media so I’ll have to wait until we meet again to talk to him. I hope that we’ll meet soon so I’ll try my best to get a real date with him. Wish me luck!

Don’t forget,

I’m the girl who knows it all. xoxo

Houston, we have a problem

It’s Christmas time!!! Almost. But today was a good day to start Christmas shopping! My friend and I spent almost all day in Harrods and Fortnum and Mason. It was insane! I bought way too many stuff but at least it made me feel good. Buying expensive things AND Christmas make me happy. I bought a new Ted Baker bag, lots of make-up, chocolate, tea, short-bread, Christmas pudding, books and much more. The bad thing is that it made me feel too confident. I put on my new lipstick and BOOM! I turned into a cute little diva. More diva than cute unfortunately. This is not who I am. This is not who I wanna be. I mean sure, I looked hot af, but was it really worth it? Getting attention from tons of guys when I only want the attention of one? I didn’t even see him today. He hasn’t messaged me all day. I’m talking about film-guy by the way. We met yesterday. It wasn’t a proper date though. He picked me up at the castle and we went to his place, talked for ages and watched funny YouTube videos. He’s the kind of guy I could talk to 24/7. He’s funny, kind and most importantly: he’s trustworthy. I’ve only met him twice and I already feel like I can trust him with almost anything. We have a lot of things in common, we can laugh together, exchange weird and crazy ideas, take selfies, be rebels, and I can simply be myself around him. He’s the cuter version of my bestie. In other words: he’s the kind of guy I’d love to be with. But does he feel the same way about me? I just messaged my friend telling him “film guy clearly doesn’t like me ;(” and that’s how he replied: “Message me again when no one likes you.” He really managed to cheer me up (no sarcasm). My bestie, on the other hand, seems to regret what he said/did when he was drunk, which is good because now I don’t have to worry about hurting his feelings. But he doesn’t seem to wanna hang out with me that much anymore. I have no idea why. Maybe it’s because of all the guy drama in my life or he’s busy. Okay, I just remembered that he’s busy with work so forget what I just said. That’s me worrying about all the little things in life. I’m a great worrier (pun intended). But Houston, we have a problem: I have a little crush on film-guy. Sigh… I knew this would happen! Last week I was thinking that I forgot what it feels like to have a crush on someone and now life was so kind as to remind me. But since life is a bitch, it doesn’t want him to like me back. But did I wake up this morning thinking “Hmm I could need a new Ted Baker bag?“??? The answer is no. Did I wake up last Saturday thinking “I hope I’ll meet a cute guy today, get a crush on him and live happily ever after“??? NO. This proves that the best things in life happen unexpectedly. But what if I don’t get my happily ever after? I just got the crush and my crush is about to crush me. Like the little stalker I am I noticed that he was online, but didn’t read or respond to my message. This could mean two things: he’s either busy (like my bestie) or he’s not interested. I hope it’s the former because if it’s the latter then he’s most likely gay. But hey – at least I’d finally get to have a gay best friend then! I’m always trying to be optimistic. Nothing in life should be able to bring me down. I’ll try to worry less and live more from now on. And I swear I’ll finish my essay by Monday… Four days left!

Don’t forget,

I’m the girl who knows it all. xoxo